Phoenix Blackwood

The Secrets that Kill Us

The secrets we keep will slowly kill us. Can Liz set them free in time?

At sixteen, Liz had already trudged through hell and back. Having bounced from one foster home to another most of her life, she finally finds herself in a stable home. But stability poses its own challenges after a life of unsteady fooling, and Liz grapples to find a way to be still. Her past still plagues her in this new world. Everything feels wrong, she is at odds with her own body and mind, and struggling to survive.

Liz finds an unlikely friend in Alex, a girl who may not share Liz’s troubled past but strives to understand, even though it means becoming a pariah at school. With Alex’s help, Liz searches for the strength to confront her demons, and the two see each other through addictions, transitions, and the dangerous consequences of coping.

Unable to let herself trust and love, even in this new space with new support, Liz’s trauma begins to drag her under. Some secrets kill, and some truths fight to stay hidden. Unearthing them all will require Liz to trust others despite a lifetime of learning just how dangerous that is.

The Secrets that Kill Us deals with many difficult topics that may be triggering for some readers. Most of the topics are implied while a few are explicit.

Childhood sexual abuse (implied)
Sexual assault (implied)
Drug use (explicit)
Alcohol use/abuse (explicit and implied)
Intravenous drug use (Explicit)
Child abuse (explicit and implied)
Explicit language
Homophobia (explicit)
Suicide (explicit)
Self harm (head banging)
Bullying (explicit)

Published on 5 April 2022 by Cinnabar Moth Publishing LLC

Cover by Ira Geneve

ISBN: 978-1-953971-38-8 (Paperback)
ISBN: 978-1-953971-39-5 (Hardcover)
ISBN: 978-1-953971-40-1 (EPUB)

Phoenix Blackwood

The Love that Binds Us

Secrets can kill, but love will bind us together.

From the outside, Alex has a perfect life. She has a partner who loves her, gets good grades in school, excels at most sports, and has a big heart. From the inside, Alex’s life is anything but perfect. She hasn’t spoken to her father in years. She’s hiding the fact that her once-best-friend now-romantic-partner Theo is trans and nonbinary from her homophobic mother. Bullies are harassing her and Theo at school, taunting and shoving. It’s all becoming too much for Alex to bear.

Things take a surprising turn when Alex’s mother discovers her relationship with Theo. After Alex is thrown out of her house and taken in by Theo’s foster family, Alex can live honestly. For a while, things start to feel manageable. Alex finds a new group of friends. She navigates what “family” means beyond her mother and sister. She even considers forgiving her mother’s past mistakes. But forgiveness requires honesty. Secrets Alex’s mother has been keeping are surfacing, trying to bind Alex to misery. As Alex learns the full truth of her mother’s past mistakes, she will need the love of her chosen family and friends to gently bind her life into a shape that keeps her whole.

The Love that Binds Us deals with many difficult topics that may be triggering for some readers. Most of the topics are implied while a few are explicit.

Child abuse (explicit)

Medical trauma (explicit)

Genital mutilation (implied)

Homophobia (explicit)

Published on 4 April 2023 by Cinnabar Moth Publishing LLC

Cover by Ira Geneve

ISBN: 978-1-953971-69-2 (Paperback)
ISBN: 978-1-953971-70-8 (Hardcover)
ISBN: 978-1-953971-71-5 (EPUB)

Phee hides her secrets well, until they become too much to bear. Her biggest secret is one she’s kept even from herself. Her longest-kept secret is one that hurts her every day. Her final secret is one that will set her free.

In a school that doesn’t accept them, Phee, Theo, and Alex fight for a community close to their hearts. The community desperately needs the trio to help the rest of them leave the shadows without fear of violence and discrimination. Through some heroic activism, the three push the school officials to their limits — forcing them to act — for better or worse.

For Phee, the fight for a place where she can be herself doesn’t stop when she gets home. The strain of taking care of her alcoholic and abusive mother threatens to break Phee away from her family bond forever. Her mother can go from a messy drunk to an angry one in an instant, turning Phee’s home life from an obligation to a war zone.

Theo’s house offers respite to Phee. With compassion scarce in her life, Alex and Theo are Phee’s light in the dark. They protect and cherish her. At Theo’s, Phee is free to be herself and explore her identity safely — her chosen family ready to catch her if she falls. That’s what family does, how family finds us when we feel lost and alone.

The Family that Finds Us deals with many difficult topics that may be triggering for some readers. Most of the topics are implied while a few are explicit.

Sexual Assault

Homophobia

Transphobia

Drug Use

Abuse

Explicit Language

Alcoholism

Coming April 2, 2024 by Cinnabar Moth Publishing LLC

Cover by Ira Geneve

ISBN: 978-1-962308-03-8 (Paperback)
ISBN: 978-1-962308-04-5 (Hardcover)
ISBN: 978-1-962308-05-2 (EPUB)